Another weird day, spent most of it fretting about the weather, when the weather is bad my stomach hurts and I get anxious so I rarely eat.
I ended up having a bowl of the black bean soup, and a bowl of the cashew pasta. Two minute maid popsicles, and a can of chilled pears, which was an awesome idea from my buddy jam.
No exercise, I'm sore from the challenges I started yesterday, and afraid that I may hurt myself. Also it was to rainy to walk.
November is gonna be awesome!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Food for 10-30-2013
Yesterday was weird, again. I some pretty bad news in regards to my job search and other things and I just let it get the best of me. I became depressed, and ate rarely. In fact I had a banana, a half cup of the navy bean soup, and a full serving of the Kale pasta I made and a bag of bugles, because they are vegan and had 160 calories.
I'm too lazy for a calorie count tonight.
While I spent most of the day in a depressed sad for me pity party daze, I did at least finally hit my exercise goal of 30 minutes. I got through day one of the ab and pushup challenge and finished it up with a walk.
Some days are worse than the others, let's hope halloween and the threat of storms is better.
I'm too lazy for a calorie count tonight.
While I spent most of the day in a depressed sad for me pity party daze, I did at least finally hit my exercise goal of 30 minutes. I got through day one of the ab and pushup challenge and finished it up with a walk.
Some days are worse than the others, let's hope halloween and the threat of storms is better.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Tuesday 10-29-2013
I overslept, woke up at 1130 missed something I wanted to do, not a big deal but it put me in a bad mood and set the tone for the rest of the day.
I had a bowl of the black bean soup for lunch. Calories for this were 74 with 3 grams of fat.
Then I pigged out and had three Minute Maid Juice bars, 180 calories total, a bowl of cashews 320 calories total 26 fat,
For dinner I cooked a Pasta with Kale in a Cashew lemon sauce. It came to 440 calories and 10 fat.
Totals for today was a butt load of a fat (39g) Thankfully it was low in saturated fat (Something like 3 grams) and 1014 calories.
I slept for most of the day. I noticed when I take my klonopin that I am getting tired now, and that bothers me a bit.
time to exercise, at least that will not be a blow out :(
I had a bowl of the black bean soup for lunch. Calories for this were 74 with 3 grams of fat.
Then I pigged out and had three Minute Maid Juice bars, 180 calories total, a bowl of cashews 320 calories total 26 fat,
For dinner I cooked a Pasta with Kale in a Cashew lemon sauce. It came to 440 calories and 10 fat.
Totals for today was a butt load of a fat (39g) Thankfully it was low in saturated fat (Something like 3 grams) and 1014 calories.
I slept for most of the day. I noticed when I take my klonopin that I am getting tired now, and that bothers me a bit.
time to exercise, at least that will not be a blow out :(
Monday, October 28, 2013
Weekly Weigh In
I do not actually own a scale, so my weight and BMI figures come from Wii Fit + . Take that for what it is. This is a weekly thing.
Weight 296
BMI 38.00
Blood Work
This is as of 9-26-2013
Cholesterol, Total 168
HDL 31 (this is low)
Triglycerides 208 (This is high)
LDL 95 (This is high)
Blood Pressure 130 over 90. This is high.
I can lower all of this.
Weight 296
BMI 38.00
Blood Work
This is as of 9-26-2013
Cholesterol, Total 168
HDL 31 (this is low)
Triglycerides 208 (This is high)
LDL 95 (This is high)
Blood Pressure 130 over 90. This is high.
I can lower all of this.
Food for Monday 10-28-2013
Today was a weird day. I woke up at an unlike me time of 530 am, just starving, so I fixed a bowl of oatmeal to charge me up for the day with my nephew. Oatmeal, maple syrup and half a banana with a cup apple juice, seemed like a great way to start my day, low in calories and helps clean up my cholesterol. My breakfast was 306 calories.
I logged on to MTGO because my nephew was asleep, and decided that I would stream it. I played mono black, and in round three I had my snack, a Minute Maid Juice Bar with 60 calories 0 fat. Christian was up he did not want breakfast but wanted lunch at noon which is good because I was ready for lunch.
I had the rest of my black bean burgers, to clean out some left overs. I ran back the black bean burger. Again with a tortilla, this time I went with hummus in place of the salsa, and it was 210 calories and 3 grams of fat. The oil in the hummus added a gram.
Christian and I went on a walk at 1, which was kinda of him because he was playing his video game, but it was a short lived walk, maybe I ate to much, maybe I was anxious about the job possibility I got called about while walking, but we quickly made it home after 12 minutes.
About 18 minutes short, but I need an exercise plan, when to do it, where to do it, what to do. So for three days a week I am going to follow the couch to 5k plan there was an ab challenge that a friend posted that I am going to do and the push up challenge that I am going to do. I figure I have so much free time, that I have the time to do the ab and pushups around the house whenever I am not cleaning or cooking.
I had another snack after christian left. strawberry ice (Luigi's italian ice is vegan btw.) 100 calories, 0 fat.
Then I cooked dinner, a nice black bean soup, comparable to Panera breads in taste but not in sodium or calories. It was by far, the best soup I've made so far, and I'm glad to have it as part of my lunch and dinners for the next week (I still have tons of the navy bean soup as well) Calories for this were 74 with 3 grams of fat.
Feeling tired, I took a nap, intending it to be for an hour or so, but that backfired, but thankfully I still have time in the day to do my homework, answer my work emails, follow up on conversations with my friends and my exercise for the day.
So total calories for today are 750, fat for today is 6.5. So far my chest hurts less and my liver hurts less. I also had 6 cups of water which is a huge number for me, and close to what I drank in sugary drinks per day.
I have my weigh in post to make and my blood work will go with it, so I'll be back in about 40 to get that done!
I logged on to MTGO because my nephew was asleep, and decided that I would stream it. I played mono black, and in round three I had my snack, a Minute Maid Juice Bar with 60 calories 0 fat. Christian was up he did not want breakfast but wanted lunch at noon which is good because I was ready for lunch.
I had the rest of my black bean burgers, to clean out some left overs. I ran back the black bean burger. Again with a tortilla, this time I went with hummus in place of the salsa, and it was 210 calories and 3 grams of fat. The oil in the hummus added a gram.
Christian and I went on a walk at 1, which was kinda of him because he was playing his video game, but it was a short lived walk, maybe I ate to much, maybe I was anxious about the job possibility I got called about while walking, but we quickly made it home after 12 minutes.
About 18 minutes short, but I need an exercise plan, when to do it, where to do it, what to do. So for three days a week I am going to follow the couch to 5k plan there was an ab challenge that a friend posted that I am going to do and the push up challenge that I am going to do. I figure I have so much free time, that I have the time to do the ab and pushups around the house whenever I am not cleaning or cooking.
I had another snack after christian left. strawberry ice (Luigi's italian ice is vegan btw.) 100 calories, 0 fat.
Then I cooked dinner, a nice black bean soup, comparable to Panera breads in taste but not in sodium or calories. It was by far, the best soup I've made so far, and I'm glad to have it as part of my lunch and dinners for the next week (I still have tons of the navy bean soup as well) Calories for this were 74 with 3 grams of fat.
Feeling tired, I took a nap, intending it to be for an hour or so, but that backfired, but thankfully I still have time in the day to do my homework, answer my work emails, follow up on conversations with my friends and my exercise for the day.
So total calories for today are 750, fat for today is 6.5. So far my chest hurts less and my liver hurts less. I also had 6 cups of water which is a huge number for me, and close to what I drank in sugary drinks per day.
I have my weigh in post to make and my blood work will go with it, so I'll be back in about 40 to get that done!
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Food for Sunday, October 27th 2013
I went to bed around 5am, with reruns of Married...With Children playing thanks to TBS. I woke up around 11, was hungry and had a can of pears. They were packed in water instead of the gross sugary syrup. while that can may have been 3 servings, I ate it all.
It was worth 120 calories and 0 fat. I'll take it.
Lunch rolled around soon after. Mom took my nephew to the mall for something or the other, so I took the opportunity to make black bean burgers. Fairly simple. 6 ingredients, but I was missing two of them. They came out pretty good, but they might have been better with ketchup and onion powder.
Regardless, I got the recipe from here http://www.forksoverknives.com/sample-recipes-from-everyday-happy-herbivore/ Scroll down a bit, that's a sampling from the Happy Herbivore.
I took a wheat tortilla for my black bean burger, warmed it up added some salsa, and had lunch!
Lunch was 190 calories a majority of those coming from the tortilla and 2 fat grams. All from the wheat tortilla.
After I got in from my exercise, I rested for a bit, mom came home with an eggplant, and it's been a while since I had that, she was craving eggplant parm, and while it sounded good, I just had eggplant and marinara sauce. The skin was extra chewy, so I ate around it, but with the sauce it was quite good.
That meal came to 90 calories and 0 fat. (I am being awfully generous with the definition of meal here.) 70 of calories were from the serving size of sauce that was used.
Dinner came, I ran back the black bean burger. Again with a tortilla, this time I went with hummus in place of the salsa, and it was 210 calories and 3 grams of fat. The oil in the hummus added a gram.
Desert was a strawberry ice (Luigi's italian ice is vegan btw.) 100 calories, 0 fat.
It's 9pm est, baseball is on, and I am going to try to create an article for the magic site I write for.
Todays totals are 710 calories, 5 grams of fat and 6 cups of water. Had a nap and have felt full all day.
I'll be back tomorrow with a weigh in (those will be weekly) and my meals for monday!
It was worth 120 calories and 0 fat. I'll take it.
Lunch rolled around soon after. Mom took my nephew to the mall for something or the other, so I took the opportunity to make black bean burgers. Fairly simple. 6 ingredients, but I was missing two of them. They came out pretty good, but they might have been better with ketchup and onion powder.
Regardless, I got the recipe from here http://www.forksoverknives.com/sample-recipes-from-everyday-happy-herbivore/ Scroll down a bit, that's a sampling from the Happy Herbivore.
I took a wheat tortilla for my black bean burger, warmed it up added some salsa, and had lunch!
Lunch was 190 calories a majority of those coming from the tortilla and 2 fat grams. All from the wheat tortilla.
After I got in from my exercise, I rested for a bit, mom came home with an eggplant, and it's been a while since I had that, she was craving eggplant parm, and while it sounded good, I just had eggplant and marinara sauce. The skin was extra chewy, so I ate around it, but with the sauce it was quite good.
That meal came to 90 calories and 0 fat. (I am being awfully generous with the definition of meal here.) 70 of calories were from the serving size of sauce that was used.
Dinner came, I ran back the black bean burger. Again with a tortilla, this time I went with hummus in place of the salsa, and it was 210 calories and 3 grams of fat. The oil in the hummus added a gram.
Desert was a strawberry ice (Luigi's italian ice is vegan btw.) 100 calories, 0 fat.
It's 9pm est, baseball is on, and I am going to try to create an article for the magic site I write for.
Todays totals are 710 calories, 5 grams of fat and 6 cups of water. Had a nap and have felt full all day.
I'll be back tomorrow with a weigh in (those will be weekly) and my meals for monday!
Exercise Goal
I made 30 minutes my daily exercise goal, and today I tried. I tried hard. I ended up getting ready, going out in the nice 60 degree temperature, and walked around. I made it about ten minutes before I queasy. Instead of just coming home and laying down though, I fought through it. I made it to twenty minutes before it became too much and I wanted the comfort of home.
After not being active for months, (remember I was walking 3 miles back and from a day, to and from work or to and from a friends house), my knees ache. My legs are killing me, and my chest burns. It's a good feeling. I like it, something like pain is weakness leaving the body or what not (I saw that on a taxi in Louisville years ago.)
Progress was made, but it may be better if I do my thirty minutes in a lower impact setting, perhaps the wii fit + I have at home.
I need to mix things up to where I do not get bored and lose motivation, that is for sure.
I'll be back tonight with a recap of what I ate today. So far so good!
After not being active for months, (remember I was walking 3 miles back and from a day, to and from work or to and from a friends house), my knees ache. My legs are killing me, and my chest burns. It's a good feeling. I like it, something like pain is weakness leaving the body or what not (I saw that on a taxi in Louisville years ago.)
Progress was made, but it may be better if I do my thirty minutes in a lower impact setting, perhaps the wii fit + I have at home.
I need to mix things up to where I do not get bored and lose motivation, that is for sure.
I'll be back tonight with a recap of what I ate today. So far so good!
Sweet Treat for tomorrow
Two ingredients, Peanut Butter and Bananas!
Frozen banana peanut butter guilt-free ice cream recipe
Serves 2Ingredients:
- 4 frozen bananas
- 1/4 cup creamy peanut butter
Directions:
- In a food processor, add frozen bananas and start processing.
- Stop after a minute or so to scrap down sides if you see it starting to stick.
- At first you will notice the bananas start to resemble small dots and chunks. Keep processing and stopping to scrape until the banana comes together and resembles soft-serve ice cream. This whole process should take between 3 and 5 minutes.
- Add in peanut butter and blend for 30 seconds to combine.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Meals for Saturday October 26, 2013
Lunch: A salad. The dressing was fatty, a chipotle honey mustard. I hate having stuff in the fridge and not using it. Next salad will use a simple vinaigrette.
Snack 1: Strawberry Italian Ice. No fat 100 calories.
Dinner. I made a navy bean soup. http://www.forksoverknives.com/white-bean-and-vegetable-soup/
It was quite delicious. Easy to make, like ten minutes of prep, 30 minutes of cooking. 151 calories. 1 gram of fat.
Snack 2. 1/4 cup of sunflower seeds. 163 calories, 14 grams fat
Totals (Not adding the salad)
15 grams of fat
700 calories (Estimated with salad)
700 is a very low number, but let's add my sugary drink to it to get 980 calories. Most people would eat this much and still feel hungry, the soup though, was loaded in fiber, whole grains and veggies. the salad was the same way. I've not felt hungry despite not eating since 6pm.
Good Start right?
Snack 1: Strawberry Italian Ice. No fat 100 calories.
Dinner. I made a navy bean soup. http://www.forksoverknives.com/white-bean-and-vegetable-soup/
It was quite delicious. Easy to make, like ten minutes of prep, 30 minutes of cooking. 151 calories. 1 gram of fat.
Snack 2. 1/4 cup of sunflower seeds. 163 calories, 14 grams fat
Totals (Not adding the salad)
15 grams of fat
700 calories (Estimated with salad)
700 is a very low number, but let's add my sugary drink to it to get 980 calories. Most people would eat this much and still feel hungry, the soup though, was loaded in fiber, whole grains and veggies. the salad was the same way. I've not felt hungry despite not eating since 6pm.
Good Start right?
Some words about me.
If you're here you can see that my name is Joshua Claytor. Most of you already know me, and I wanted to thank you for coming and visiting my project. I've always had issues with my weight, it fluctuates greatly, and my confidence and self worth are tied to that. When I weigh 200 pounds, I am a world beater. Filled with confidence and energy. Getting things done. When I'm at my current weight of 296, I am beaten by the world. I hate myself. I hate that look like a ball and not a person. I hate that I have moobs that should probably be supported by a rather strong bra. Most of all I hate the pain that I have in my right abdomen whenever I am super fat. Right now, that pain is unbearable at times, and makes me feel sick to my stomach. It has gotten so bad that I would get panic attacks while driving because I thought I was going to vomit. I've stopped traveling to events. I've lost my big boy job. I have stopped seeing my friends, and that hurts because I love my friends. I should have been around to celebrate Susan's birthday, or Nate's purchase of LegitMTG. I should have been able to be best man at my brother's wedding, but instead I sat in the back stomach churning, side hurting, looking for comfort so I could out of there as soon as possible before I made a fool of myself.
Two years ago, I was in a stellar relationship. I was happy, I was out of pain, I was down to a manageable weight, and then I got scared and left her. I'm suddenly eating to dull my pain, and ballooning in size.
Three years ago I was married, was kinda happy, did not communicate and had gotten huge. I had a ton of pain, rarely left the house and when I did it was an uncomfortable drive. We thought losing my gallbladder would fix it, and it kinda did for a while at least.
Then she left, said one of the reasons was I was no longer attractive to her. That was not the only reason, we stopped communicating, we fought silently. I lost weight again, and the pain stopped.
This newest cycle, tons of pain, thinking I am going to vomit, is the 4th time it's happened, and each time I can tie it to me being severely overweight. This time though, it was the worst. Getting sick while walking, being in so much pain I could barely move, taking tons of anti emitics while my son was here and sleeping away his visits.
It ends now.
I have the best 6 year old on the planet.
I have the greatest friends on the planet.
I have the greatest job I have ever had.
I have 100 extra pounds of weight on me that makes me feel like a worthless human being, unable to catch the attention of any woman.
I have terrible cholesterol levels.
I have a fatty liver, and that's what is causing my problems.
There is no cure for a fatty liver. It of course can be reversed with slow gradual weight loss. If it does not reverse, it slowly turns into cirrhosis. That means I need a transplant. I'm 33 years old and I am much to young to need a transplant for anything. I can not keep up with my son when we go out and play. Everything hurts, and I can blame that on being fat.
When I am at a correct weight the pain goes away, the digestive issues go away, and I can keep up with my boy. I can travel, I can be confident.
So here is my plan. My current weight is 296. I've lost 4 pounds in the two weeks since I have been diagnosed with a fatty liver.
1. Exercise at least 30 minutes a day. Be it a short walk around my block or sit ups or Wii Fit, I need to get up off my butt and do something.
2. Remove all sugary drinks from my diet. I've all but stopped drinking soda already, but I have been drinking lipton teas and snapple punches. In fact the Lipton Brisk I have in front of me is a liter. I've been drinking it all day long. There were more calories in the liter of Lipton than what I have eaten today in meals. 280 calories. 76 grams of sugar. That's unneeded and complicates my digestive track. More water, less crap.
3. Stop eating ice cream whenever I can just because I want ice cream or something else sweet. I have replaced my ice cream with sorbets. They are lower in sugars, lower in fat (generally have none) and lower in calories. I've also started to freeze bananas and make ice cream out of that and peanut butter.
4. Change my diet. I eat a whole pizza every other week when my son is here. Its full of fat and is not doing anything to help me. In fact when I am at my healthiest, I am eating a plant based diet. I'm going back to that. There is little fat in a plant based diet, and my liver needs to heal. It's also really tasty!
So this blog is going to show off what I am doing in an effort to heal myself. In a years time, I should have lost 100 pounds. That will put me at 196. My goal for this is 220. That was my weight when I got married and when I was with Brittany. I do not want to balloon back up when I am done. I want to travel I want to play magic with my friends. I want to cuddle with girls again. I want to do the color run, because it looks fun.
This blog will show off the recipes that I use. They will be 100% animal free. I will keep track of my weight, and my blood work numbers here. I believe that I can be pain free again. I believe that I can get my cholesterol in check and under the high risk for heart attack numbers (I believe in the China Study, google it)
For once, I believe in me, and with work, discipline, and luck, I can make myself into the person that I want to be.
Also I need to not ignore my duties as a student, a father and as an employee of PureMTGO.com. I'm scheduling my time out to make sure I have time for that, and time for me.
In fact a MTGO tournament is about to start. Wish me luck!
Joshua Claytor
Two years ago, I was in a stellar relationship. I was happy, I was out of pain, I was down to a manageable weight, and then I got scared and left her. I'm suddenly eating to dull my pain, and ballooning in size.
Three years ago I was married, was kinda happy, did not communicate and had gotten huge. I had a ton of pain, rarely left the house and when I did it was an uncomfortable drive. We thought losing my gallbladder would fix it, and it kinda did for a while at least.
Then she left, said one of the reasons was I was no longer attractive to her. That was not the only reason, we stopped communicating, we fought silently. I lost weight again, and the pain stopped.
This newest cycle, tons of pain, thinking I am going to vomit, is the 4th time it's happened, and each time I can tie it to me being severely overweight. This time though, it was the worst. Getting sick while walking, being in so much pain I could barely move, taking tons of anti emitics while my son was here and sleeping away his visits.
It ends now.
I have the best 6 year old on the planet.
I have the greatest friends on the planet.
I have the greatest job I have ever had.
I have 100 extra pounds of weight on me that makes me feel like a worthless human being, unable to catch the attention of any woman.
I have terrible cholesterol levels.
I have a fatty liver, and that's what is causing my problems.
There is no cure for a fatty liver. It of course can be reversed with slow gradual weight loss. If it does not reverse, it slowly turns into cirrhosis. That means I need a transplant. I'm 33 years old and I am much to young to need a transplant for anything. I can not keep up with my son when we go out and play. Everything hurts, and I can blame that on being fat.
When I am at a correct weight the pain goes away, the digestive issues go away, and I can keep up with my boy. I can travel, I can be confident.
So here is my plan. My current weight is 296. I've lost 4 pounds in the two weeks since I have been diagnosed with a fatty liver.
1. Exercise at least 30 minutes a day. Be it a short walk around my block or sit ups or Wii Fit, I need to get up off my butt and do something.
2. Remove all sugary drinks from my diet. I've all but stopped drinking soda already, but I have been drinking lipton teas and snapple punches. In fact the Lipton Brisk I have in front of me is a liter. I've been drinking it all day long. There were more calories in the liter of Lipton than what I have eaten today in meals. 280 calories. 76 grams of sugar. That's unneeded and complicates my digestive track. More water, less crap.
3. Stop eating ice cream whenever I can just because I want ice cream or something else sweet. I have replaced my ice cream with sorbets. They are lower in sugars, lower in fat (generally have none) and lower in calories. I've also started to freeze bananas and make ice cream out of that and peanut butter.
4. Change my diet. I eat a whole pizza every other week when my son is here. Its full of fat and is not doing anything to help me. In fact when I am at my healthiest, I am eating a plant based diet. I'm going back to that. There is little fat in a plant based diet, and my liver needs to heal. It's also really tasty!
So this blog is going to show off what I am doing in an effort to heal myself. In a years time, I should have lost 100 pounds. That will put me at 196. My goal for this is 220. That was my weight when I got married and when I was with Brittany. I do not want to balloon back up when I am done. I want to travel I want to play magic with my friends. I want to cuddle with girls again. I want to do the color run, because it looks fun.
This blog will show off the recipes that I use. They will be 100% animal free. I will keep track of my weight, and my blood work numbers here. I believe that I can be pain free again. I believe that I can get my cholesterol in check and under the high risk for heart attack numbers (I believe in the China Study, google it)
For once, I believe in me, and with work, discipline, and luck, I can make myself into the person that I want to be.
Also I need to not ignore my duties as a student, a father and as an employee of PureMTGO.com. I'm scheduling my time out to make sure I have time for that, and time for me.
In fact a MTGO tournament is about to start. Wish me luck!
Joshua Claytor
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